Half-way there! Woo hoo!
Instead of a long introduction, I'll just show you my hideous page for today:
|"If someone breaks your heart, punch them in the face. Seriously. Punch them in the face, then go get ice cream." -Frank Ocean|
This silly page is to remind me to let go of the stinky things that other people say.
I have the fantastic ability to remember every single negative thing that was ever said to me over the course of my life so far. Ok, maybe not every single thing, but A LOT of them. I'm like a savant when it comes to remembering mean, hurtful, spiteful, angry words...usually in vivid detail. Which is odd, because otherwise I have a terrible memory...so bad I sometimes think I've got early onset Alzheimer's. (Mental disorders are the one thing I get a little hypochondriac-ish about.) All these negative words stick to my brain and float around in there.
When I saw this quote, it made me think about my collection of little nasty words. Despite the silliness of the image this quote called to mind (stick figure with bloody knuckles eating an ice cream cone, with another stick figure knocked out in the background...yes, that's really how I think...I know, I'm a weirdo...), these words are actually pretty wise. In my case, they seemed to tell me that people can be jerks. Punch them in the face by ignoring their ridiculousness. Go get ice cream means don't let it bother you, just let it go and move on. And the reason you can let it go and move on, is because IT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER!!!
I don't know why, at some earlier point in my life, I have not realized it, but so what? So what if someone says something mean spirited to me? Sure, it's bound to hurt, especially if it comes from someone you love. But why hold onto it? What use is it to hang onto those things?
I saw another quote that says "What other people think of you is NOT your business." In other words, all those dumb things that I think about so much...they just don't really matter. It's not on me, it's on them.
I guess this kind of goes along with my rambling post about my opinion being the one that should be the most important. I just didn't connect the two things the other day. If I like who I am or the way I do things, and it's not hurting anyone, then it doesn't matter two flips what someone else has to say about it.
It's even more silly to keep someone else's opinion on repeat for all your life, especially when the situations those mean words applied to have been over and done with for years! How in the world has it taken me so long to recognize this fact, when it's so obvious now?
So, here's the deal: I'm hitting the delete button on all the negative stuff and I'm not going to let my brain record it anymore. Starting today, I'm punching those heartbreaking words in the face! And right now...I'm off to get some celebratory ice cream...