For DOCUMENTED LIFE (DLP) this week, the prompt was to "Add A Map" and here's what I did:
|I do love a nifty post card...saving my lazy butt from having to draw a map just gives it bonus points...|
And here it is with the post card flipped over:
|She's a little wonky looking, so the postcard covers up the wonky bits...plus it reminds me of a blindfold...the girl can't see where she's going...yeah, metaphors for life and stuff...|
I like to think of my girl's wonky eye as a twitch...
|Good old twitchy eye...she's tired of the curve balls.|
...because I feel like I've got my own eyeball twitch going on right about now.
If you've been reading the blog for a while, you know how much time and effort I've put into getting myself to a place I'm happy with. And I kinda thought that I was close to being done with that...you know, the home stretch...
But after the unexpected epiphany I talked about in the last post, I realized that the finish line is no where in sight. *Sigh.* All that work and I'm still not even close to done. Maybe this is the point where I hit "the wall" and it seems like I'm not gonna reach my goal. Then comes the second wind, right? Yeah, I'm ready for the second wind now...
|"Where do I go from here?"|
I don't know if I've ever been much of a planner... I think I've always been a bit of a jumper and then a figure-it-outer... But now I'm older and I've gotten used to the relative stability that slowly crept into my life. I guess I got these expectations that things would continue in a certain way...and now I see that's not the way it needs to be.
I know it will be ok. I will be ok. I will figure it out and move forward. I've done it before. I can do it now. But it won't be the headlong dive into the unknown that I'm somewhat used to. Instead, it will have to be slow, calculated steps...and I don't like that; it makes me feel sneaky. And I don't like or want to be sneaky...it just doesn't seem like I have much of a choice this time.
I've always been good at imagining the life that I want, but never at figuring out how to make it happen. Now I've got to learn how to make a plan and stick to it. I've changed a lot over the years, especially the last few...so maybe it won't be as hard as I think. It's just a matter of looking at the map and charting the course. And then, at some point, taking the first step in a new direction.